Well, first off...I'm a mom to three pretty awesome kids, if I do say so myself. I know, everyone thinks their kids are awesome, but mine really are! I have two girls, who are 19 and 13, and one boy, 17. My oldest graduated high school in 2010 and is now attending college. She recently got married as well. I'm have been happily divorced for over 10 years and I am currently single, but I would love to find someone, someday, that I can grow old with.
Let's see...back in 2001, I was diagnosed with Trigeminal Neuralgia and was on medication for it until 2005, when I had Microvascular Decompression surgery. That surgery affected my memory a bit and gave me Bell's Palsy. The Bell's Palsy has gone away about 95% but my long term memory has alot of holes in it. In addition to all that, I believe my being on the medications for so long contributed to my very thick hair becoming thin and fine....and it is thinning more, I believe.
What makes me want to lose weight the most? I lost my mother in 2004, so she never got to see me pain free. Losing her was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. She was my best friend. We talked everyday. I miss her every second of every day. She died of acute renal failure brought on by hypertension and diabetes. Her weight essentially killed her. I don't want to follow in her footsteps. I won't do that to my children. I don't want them to live with the pain of losing their mom too soon.
On a slightly lighter note...
I am a Mechanical Designer, by trade, which is the greatest profession if you want your backside to grow. You sit on it all day long in an office. It pays well, though. But like alot of people in this economy, I got laid-off in April 2009 and have been out of work ever since. I went through EMT training and got fully certified, so I would have a slight backup plan in case I couldn't find a job... only to realize that I am just too fat and out of shape to actually work on an ambulance. I get winded just walking up a flight of stairs. Hello....wakeup call!
So out of desperation and frustration, I up and moved my family back to Waco, TX (from Houston) in February 2010 and have enrolled myself in the community college here in hopes of either stumbling across a job or ending up with a bachelors degree, whichever comes first. Life has become a bit simpler since we moved here and we have just been trying to enjoy small town life. UPDATE: I found a job in August 2010!
But I have noticed that lately...I am tired ALL the time, my blood pressure is out of control and I just don't have very much stamina. I get tired just walking across my college campus...and I'm just not old enough for that crap yet. I figure that my weight is probably a contributing factor to most of my problems...and that, I can fix without paying a copay. I'm sure depression plays a part in wanting to just sleep my life away, but I think a little weight loss just might be enough to pull me out of it.
So after much research and seeing a friend's daughter having success with the program, I decided to try the HCG protocol that I've heard so much about. Maybe... I can lose some of this weight that is suffocating me like all these other people have done. UPDATE: Oops! That didn't work at all! Currently trying Medifast!
I want to get up, exercise and get healthy but I just can't do it while lugging around all this extra weight. I feel like a beached whale sometimes...even though I'm only one size bigger than I can always remember being. I can't remember the last time I wore less than a 15/16... I think it was when I was about 18 and I could get into a 14. Well now, I'm in an 18. A snug 18, at that.
OK, let's see... I will be starting this journey at a whopping 236 pounds, give or take. I will take a proper weight on Day 1 of the protocol, of course, but 236 is about right. I want to be 150. If I am 150, I will be in a normal BMI range for my height. UPDATE: I gained 20 pounds after the HCG fiasco. UPDATE #2: I am beginning Medifast at 248, so I am 12 pounds over where I was when I started the HCG. Ugh...
Will I ever get down to 150? Who knows...but I sure would like to try. I am desperate to get out of the 200s.
So I guess that is my first goal...get out of the 200's and half way to goal.
50 pounds (to get to 198) will be my mini goal, then I'll get to work on the other 48 pounds (to get to 150).
Wow, 86 pounds to lose. UPDATE: Try 98.
Ridiculous.
