Point Me at the Sky.....

Day 10

2011-06-07T10:01:00.006-05:00

I am tired today. Why? I have no idea. I slept from 11:30pm-6:30am so I had a pretty normal amount of Zzzzs but still, I want to leave work, go home and crawl into bed. I really hope I'm just sleepy and not getting sick.

Anyway, I drank my shake this morning and I am on my 3rd bottle of water. I took my One-a-day about 30 min after drinking my shake and I kinda feel like I'm gonna puke. I know it will be OK once I have my next MF meal, but ugh. In fact, I just went and made my Brownie...so relief is on it's way.

On a lighter note, I have decided to try not to weigh in until next Monday. As an obsessive daily weigher, I have no idea if I will be able to do it or not, but I'm gonna try. I would love to step on the scale on Monday and see 235.

235 is the weight I was when I started the HCG diet SCAM last year. In a little less than a year I gained almost 20 pounds, as I was 253 about 2 weeks before starting MF. I have never felt worse than I have in the last year. Another thing that came to me last night, I have not been under 212 since 2001. It is going to be fantabulous to break through that barrier. That's only 28 pounds from now.

I can DO this!

Day 9 - 240 (-.8)

2011-06-06T07:59:00.004-05:00

Wow...I can't believe that I am actually DOING this! I have never been able to stick with a diet more than 3 days. It's the end of the 9th day and I haven't cheated once. While I have made some minor mistakes with the specifics of the diet, I'm sure...I have not eaten any sludge of any kind. This is a BIG deal. I even ordered pizza for my teenagers today and I never even SAW it. It's amazing how easy this plan is and how much I am enjoying the food. Not only that, but I feel great and like a fog has been lifted. I am loving life!

Day 8 - 240.8 (-.2)

2011-06-05T10:18:00.001-05:00

Official Weigh In : 240.8

Day 7 - 241 (-1.2)

2011-06-04T21:01:00.000-05:00

Well...another successful day. I woke up at 241....that's 7 pounds down!!! Tomorrow is my official 1 week weigh in so hopefully, I'll be down a bit more. Yay!

With the help of cellphone alarms, I had all my meals, three hours apart and even hit Outback again. I got stuck in town without my MF meals so my son and I decided to hit a restaurant and Outback is the only one I new I would be "safe" at. This time I ordered the salmon, with a salad (no cheese, croutons or onion w/ dressing on side) and some yellow squash. I did put some lemon on the fish and squash but that's OK, it's a condiment! :P It was so good!!! I am going to make my salads like outback, they are so yummy!

My son took me gun shopping today. I have always wanted to own a gun, but I would never have one in the house with my kids but they're leaving for the entire summer and I get pretty jumpy when I'm alone. My son seems to think I would feel better with one in the house, if I knew how to use it. The thought made me nervous until I went and looked at them. Once I held the model I liked, I knew I had to have it. We're going to go shooting at the range next weekend. Then I am going to take a gun class and then maybe take a concealed handgun class, as well. This is the model I settled on. I haven't bought it yet....I'm still looking for a good price.

After the gun shop and dinner at the Outback, I had to meet my adult daughter halfway between her town and mine. She somehow had made off with the only copy of the house key last weekend and we had no way to lock the house all this week. So after dinner in a town the other direcion we head to the meeting point. We get to the gas station (as I have to put some gas in her car) and I notice I'm on empty too...so I go to get my debit card out of my purse. It's not there. I have no cash and two vechicles with no gas in them. Ugh!!! I had to search this town for the Walmart, all the while running on fumes. They let me get $20 cash back from a check if I bought something, so I bought a pack of gum. I gave my daughter $10 of gas and I took $10 of gas...then I had to turn around and drive past my house, BACK to Outback to get my card. Double ugh!!! LOL!

Needless to say, I'm glad the day is over...and I look forward to the weighin tomorrow. Come on 8 pounds!!!

Outback Adventures (Day 6)

2011-06-03T20:20:00.003-05:00

This is my last weekend with my 13 yr old before she goes to her dad's for a month, then goes to spend a month with her aunt. She REALLY wanted to go out for dinner so we went to Outback.

Being a "newbie" I was kind if nervous....but I ordered the Outback Special 6oz. (which was 5oz cooked) with no butter, a salad with dressing on the side (I ordered the only lite dressing they had - Tangy Tomato, but it was gross so I got Ranch), and Broccoli and Squash (which I hate both)..... with no butter.

The salad came with croutons, onions and chesse so I tossed the onion and crouton to my daughter and picked off as much cheese as I could. I dipped my salad in the dressing and barely used any, but I ate all the salad and surely is was over 1 cup. I ate a couple bites of the squash and broccoli...maybe half the portion....and I ate all the yummy steak.

One thing though...when our steaks came out they both has the added 3 grilled shrimps on them. The water had screwed up but I asked if there was butter on mine and when he said no....I ate those wonderful little things....so this was my indulgence I suppose. I think all in all I ended up eating close to the proper amount of veggies and meat....I just splurged on the 3 shrimps.

One odd thing....my daughter had ordered a Coke Zero for me when they seated her (I was parking the car) and when I took a drink, it was awful....(to me only)....I ordered water for the first time ever in a restaurant and drank the whole thing.

I walked out feeling very proud of myself....even if I had 3 shrimp.

Day 6 - 242.2 (-.8)

2011-06-03T08:12:00.000-05:00

Well, last night I went to the grocery store since I was running out of greens. I got some spinach, mushrooms, chicken...and then I saw a display of Laughing Cow cheese. Yes, I know some say it's on plan and some say it's not, but I figured it would be nice to have in the house if i wanted some cheese once in a while so I bought one package of Light Queso Fresco & Chipotle. I got some more bottled water and I was done.

Dinner consisted of 1 c. of spinach, 1 c. of mushrooms and 6 oz. of chicken breast strips with 2 tbs. of light ceasar dressing. Then...I thought....I should really try that LC cheese, so I grabed 2 wedges, since I read that they equal 1 healthy fat and I must say they were yummy! But after dinner, what I experienced could only be classified as guilt. Why did I think I NEEDED that cheese? Is the ceasar dressing considered a fat too? I only needed one fat serving yesterday....oh, well. Learning experiences, I guess.

About 7pm, I realized I forgot my evening meal, so I went to see what looked good and I decided to try the Dark Chocolate Anti-Oxidant Shake. It was the first time I have ever used my little blender that I have had for 6 years lol. When I used it a slight burning smell came out of the motor, what I could only guess as dust burning off it, lol. Anyway, I added 1 c. of water and crushed ice to it and I had a shake! It was OK. First taste was great....before I was done, I was forcing myself to finish it...it wasn't bad, I just didn't want it. And this shake came with the free week pack. I won't ever order the Dark Chocolate one. Too much of an aftertaste. Which reminds me, I need to order some Dutch Chocolate shake powder...I seem to drink a shake everyday and I only ordered a case of 24 ready-to-drink shakes.

Now to the good news...yes, I weighed today. No, I haven't hidden my scale. I have this scale and I love it! But it sure is acting weird. I weighed after I got up this morning (after I went to the bathroom, of course) and it read 242.2 which is a .8 loss. Yay! Then I got out of the shower, dried off and weighed again. This time the scale read 242.0 I have always assumed I would weigh more with wet hair than dry. I don't know why but it just sounds logical to me. Maybe it is something to do with the sensor stuff and a wet body....I dunno. Well, the weight I am logging is the first reading...so I down 5.8 pounds after 5 days on MF. I really wanted to get to 10 by my official weigh in day, but that's OK. What matters is: I AM DOING THIS!!!!

I am taking my kids to the movies this weekend. I would usually get candy from the dollar store and buy a big tub of popcorn, but popcorn has been a no-no since I got my braces in April. Obviously, I will be skipping the candy so I think I will just take a bag of parm. puffs and have a Diet Coke, as a treat. Up until the day I started MF, I drank 7-8 Coke Zeros every day. I have no had even a sip of one since MF....although there is a case of them in my fridge at home and 10 in my mini-fridge at work. Great, now I'm thinking about them...lol

Have a Great Friday!!!!!!!

Day 5 - 243 (-0)

2011-06-02T13:00:00.003-05:00

I tried not to step on the scale this morning. I really did. But it's right there on the bathroom floor. I just had to. I really wish I could hae held out until Saturday but whatever. Now, I'm just confused. I weighed 243 before my shower. After my shower, it read 242.2...then when I forgot that number, I went back and it said 243.6. Uhh...I guess I will just stick with 243 and say no loss. Grrr...I went without my soup crackers yesterday hoping to help my loss along....guess it didn't work. Oh well...

Today will be my 5th day being 100% on plan, I'm not having a hard time sticking with it at all....I just really had hoped that weight would be melting off me this first week like butter. Apparently, that's not the case even though I probably used to have 4000 calories a day before MF and most of them were carbs. Yes, I said 4000.

I don't know if I am in ketosis or not, but somehow I doubt it. I have no sweet taste in my mouth and don't seem to have bad breath, although I haven't asked anyone. I have been tracking my food and am staying under 100 carbs just fine. I did however forget my healthy fat yesterday...but I had 1-1/2 cups of cottage cheese as my lean, so I know I got some fat.

I dunno, I just wish I knew I was in ketosis and saw more movement on the scale this first week, but we don't always get what we want, do we?

Off to have my yummy MF shake :D

Day 4 - 243lbs (-0)

2011-06-01T07:47:00.003-05:00

Disappointed but determined.

I weighed this morning and realized the saga of the daily weigher has begun. I did not see a drop. I weighed exactly the same as yesterday. I am going to try not to weigh again until Monday, but I doubt it will happen. I like to see ongoing progress or failure....daily. Daily weighing is probably the cause of all my diet failures....but shhh...I didn't admit that.

I was hungry a bit last night. I had eggbeaters, rotel, mushrooms and spinach and needless to say, while it was alot of food, it didn't taste as good as I thought it would. I really sholuld have seasoned it....what was missing was CHEESE. Oh cheese, how I miss you so. Anyway, after dinner I had a chocolate mint crunch bar and a bit later...I had a sugar free cherry jello. Yesterday was the third day I stayed on plan and I am proud of myself....but I am not over the hump yet. I really want to get past the week mark.

This morning was something new. I was hungry in the morning. Not ravenous but hungry. I am NEVER hungry before 10am. I have never been able to be a breakfast eater until now. If a shake counts as a breakfast anyway. I could do breakfast shakes forever, I think.

I really enjoyed my ready to drink shake. They are so yummy when they're cold. I am glad I ordered a case of them instead of the mix up ones.

Anyway...at least the headaches seems to be gone, but I'm a bit tired...nothing I can't deal with but I really hope I am one of those people who get a burst of energy soon.

Til tomorrow...

Day 3 - 243lbs (-1.4)

2011-05-31T13:43:00.001-05:00

I won't be doing this daily weighing thing once the newness wears off. It is just cool seeing instant progress (or dropping of water weight), but it's entertaining...so I will do it for now.

As of this morning, I am down 5 pounds. THAT is motivation! Today is my first day back at work on Medifast and so far so good. I had a shake this morning and a bar a little while ago....and I soaked my chicken noodle soup in a thermos for a couple hours before eating it for lunch. I have to say, it was good! I brought a brownie and parmasean puffs to choose from for this afternoon, so I am good to go.

I can't wait until the people at work start to notice.

Day 2 - 244.4lbs (-3.6)

2011-05-30T13:38:00.002-05:00

Happy Memorial Day!

I pretty much have had a headache all day until I finally thought to take something for it. I took 2 Excedrin and that was all it took...headache gone. I wish I would have taken it earlier..oh well. I have been on plan 100% all day and 100% good with my water (I have drank 8 bottles!)...except I think I ate 2 more ounces of chicken that I was supposed to, but oh well. I'm learning.

I am not having cravings nor am I hungry. I think I can do this!

Day 1 - 248lbs

2011-05-29T17:33:00.000-05:00

I don't normally eat until lunchtime during the week...and on weekends, I usually don't eat until 3-4:00, calling that dinner. If I DO eat before then, it's usually crap...donuts or candy. I always start the day with a Coke Zero as well, diet soda is one of my vices. But no more! I am not on the Medifast path and I am determined to eat 6 times a day...ugh.

Today is my first day, I'm obviously not at work so it should be easier...wrong. I just wanted to sleep late...not wake up with an alarm and drink a shake. But I did it...then i went back to sleep....only to wake up and eat a bar, then go back to sleep and wake up and make pancakes, which were quite yummy. After "lunch", I was over the whole sleeping thing, but all my chores are done, my kid is gone to her sister's until tomorrow,the yardwork is done....so really I have nothing else to do today but lounge around and watch TV and play on my laptop. What a nice Sunday.

And....the alarm went off to remind me to go eat AGAIN. But I'm not hungry!!! Oh well...off I go to try some other new item in my Medifast pantry....what will it be....it remains to be seen.

But I do want to point out that if the food is as decent as the shakes, bars and pancakes, I think I can totally DO this.

I am excited to get this weight gone once and for all!!! TTYL!

Received my Medifast shipment...

2011-05-27T16:36:00.001-05:00

I tore open the box like a kid at Christmas. SO many choices...I lovingly put it all away on it's "shelf" I made for it in the pantry. Nice and organized.

I am ready...tomorrow I begin!!!

So much has happened....

2011-05-26T13:32:00.001-05:00

This is where I start my blog over again...

Since January, I have totaled my truck on the way to work, moved into a beautiful rent house 2 miles from work, bought my first brand new car and quit going to the gym after about three visits. Story of my life. Life of a quitter.

Anyway, I am finally sick of it. Sick of being fat. After years of trying Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem, Atkins, the HCG gimmick, Metabolism Miracle and just eating healthy... I bit the bullet and ordered Medifast. It is my last ditch effort before Gastric Bypass. This is it.

I ordered a month of food, got a week free and ordered a case of the ready-to-drink shakes. I have emptied my cabinets and fridge and shopped for my lean and green meals. My kids are going to their dad's when school is out in a few days, so the only person I will be feeding is myself.

I will not fail this time.

I have a personal trainer!

2011-01-19T12:42:00.001-06:00

Last weekend, I went to Waco Regional Tennis & Fitness to inquire about a membership. This place is right down the street from my house and it's beautiful. I found of that they are having a sale that ends Jan. 31st that not only waives the sign-up fee, it drops the family rate down by $20 a month and includes tennis! I also picked up a business card for one of their best trainers (according to the girl at the front desk, anyway.)

Well, I finally emailed her and after a few back and forth emails, I decided to hire her. I'm excited! She is also the instuctor for some of the classes and the bootcamp they have every morning. She is going to re-structure my diet to include good food that will help shed the weight. I have never taken this kind of step before, so maybe this will be just what I need.

Last night, just as a start...I picked up some FF yogurt, fruit, Healthy Choice soups and WW dinners to have up at work so I will stay away from the snack machine and so far today....I have eaten pretty healthy. Now, I just need to get on the water kick.

Making changes, making changes.

Here I go again, on my own....

2011-01-11T14:20:00.002-06:00

Hola!

I have been gone for 5 whole months! In that time, I have finished an entire semester of college, spent two weeks in Disney World and gained 20 pounds. Yep! TWENTY pounds. Even though I had stayed between 225-235 for the past few years, I am now about 252 glorious pounds. GREAT. I blame the HCG disaster, but whatever.

All I know is I have never felt so FAT. My stomach, instead of being kind of empty and flabby, is now a round shaped belly of fat. It has no "give" left. The past couple day the front of my stomach has been itching like crazy too...last night I realized what it probably is. It is probably my stretch marks stretching! OMG!

So anyway...I just started the Spring semester at school and my job is going well. I am looking to move closer to work soon, but not right yet...so I believe my stress level is as low as it's going to get. It's now or never.

The nurse at work and I have inquired about getting Weight Watchers at Work up and running. I suppose that is my next endeavor. I have tried it before and quit after 2 weeks. What is different now? Not much, but I am just fed up. I will update my weight and measurements as soon as I start something.

I am fat, hear me cry.

I walked.... - 233.0

2010-09-21T15:53:00.006-05:00

I walked last night. Just around the block....but I did it. I plan on doing it again tonight too. I want to be able to walk 5 miles on a treadmill without stopping before I head to Disney. I'm just going to forget about the weight and I am going to build up my endurance. That's it....oh, and I am going to cut out eating junk. That should do something.....lol

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DISNEY! - 234.0

2010-09-05T22:05:00.001-05:00

Well, I know I have been out of pocket but I have had SO much going on with my job and school. It has just been insanely hectic. I do have some good news...

I booked and paid for a 2 week trip to DISNEY WORLD!!!! We'll be there from Dec 17 - Dec 30 and it will be our first vacation EVER! I am so excited!!!!

I would like to be at least 20 lbs lighter by then...so I am thinking about starting a plan. Not sure what...but I want to be able to eat, not restrict. I know I can't have junk...but I want to be able to have good carbs and dairy.

What to do...What to do..

Wow, has it really been a week? - 234.6 (+3)

2010-08-23T12:23:00.006-05:00

Hi, y'all!

Sorry, I dropped off the grid for a few days.....last week was hectic! Every day after work, I was having to shop for the kids school uniforms and school supplies for the start of school this week....and oh yea.... I also bought a new truck! I love it! I got rid of my Ford Focus (that I hated!) for this baby. Although my insurance went up $100 a month and my gas milage went down by about 12 mpg, I'm still happy :)

So needless to say, I definitely haven't been dieting or anything since stopping the HCG....nor have I decided what I should do to drop some weight. I haven't been eating sugary stuff and I have been eating things that are better for me, but I still want to find something to help me drop the pounds.

Still thinking about it.....

But I start my fall college classes this Thursday, so I'll see how it affects my schedule...not getting home until 9:30pm once a week and taking a class on Saturday mornings sounds kinda scary when added to workign 8 hours and a 2 hour commute every day.

R1P2D9 - 231.6 (+.6)

2010-08-15T13:14:00.000-05:00

Not a bad gain considering yesterday's indiscretions.

But after I took my HCG this morning, I just decided that I am not ready to do this right now. Not with the new job and me trying to maintain full time college student status. I'm going to definitely eat better, but just not stick to such a drastic diet, at least through this Fall semester.

I know, I look like a wuss, but really I just have so much on my plate right now and starting August 26th (when school starts), it's only going to get worse. Working, school and kids starting school is what I need to concentrate on. I'm sorry if you feel like you have wasted your advice on me, but really you haven't....I plan on doing this, just not right now.

I will still be posting and trying to figure out a good plan for doing something about my weight, but I will probably be changing the title of my blog to something less directed at HCG.

Thanks for your support!

R1P2D8 - 231 (-1.6)...Wow!

2010-08-14T19:34:00.004-05:00

Wow, all that whining was for nothing! What a nice loss!!!

Just like me to have a great loss and then sabotage myself by eating off protocol.

I was out of town and didn't have my food. Well, 2pm hit and I was really feeling a little weak but not starving. We pulled into a little mexican restaurant. And yes, I ate. I didn't eat like I normally do, but I did eat off protocol. I ordered a chicken fajita taco salad but I ordered it with no beans, sour cream, cheese or guacamole. So what I essentially had was lettuce, tomato, jalapeño and chicken.... with salsa on top. I did eat a few chips with salsa and I think I had 3-4 chips dipped maybe 1/3 of the way in chili con queso. If only I wouldn't have eaten the chips or the queso, I think I would have been fine, but now I'm worried that I will see a gain tomorrow....but whatever. It was the best choice given what was available at the time. (and it was amazing!)

TODAY'S MENU

Lunch
Taco Salad (modified) with chicken
A few chips and hot sauce
3-4 chips with queso

Dinner
3 grilled pork ribs (I know, I know....)
1 bite of mustard potato salad

Before bed
1 12oz glass of 2% milk (doh!)

R1P2D7 - 232.6 (-0)

2010-08-13T11:56:00.002-05:00

Wow, I'm dissappointed. No loss. What did I do wrong?

Whine ALERT!
I have to admit, I find myself already wanting to quit. I'm so sick of the food! Not quit trying to lose weight, of course, just quit trying to do it in such a drastic way. I don't like the way I feel when I wake up in the morning. That feeling doesn't go away until I eat lunch. I have very little support at home and I just wish I could eat some other foods. I'm not even craving junk. Even some whole grain bread or pasta would make me happy, or even a glass of milk! Either way, the decision has to be made before I finish this bottle of HCG, because I have 4 left and that is a full course that someone could use if they wanted to try this protocol. Maybe I could sell it and the supplies to a friend. I dunno....*sigh

TODAY'S MENU

Lunch:
110g of lowfat cottage cheese on a bed of spinach (this was yummy)
1 tomato
I forgot to eat my apple

Dinner:
100g lemon pepper tilapia
baby spinach
cucumbers in vinegar
1 orange
1 melba

R1P2D6: 232.6 (-.8)

2010-08-12T11:55:00.003-05:00

Another drop :)

I am sitting here eating my lunch and just for my future reference, leftover tilapia isn't the best. It was SO yummy last night though! Oh well....I need to check out the other protiens on the protocol. I think I'm ready to mix it up a bit. I have to hit the store when I get home anyway, since I have no chicken or tomatoes left. Last night, I ate a plate of baby spinach with lemon juice and lemme tell yea....it was hard to get down.

I was hungry this morning...but just a tiny bit. Heck, it may not have even been hunger...I just felt kind of empty. I don't know how to explain it. But the good news is, the headaches have gone. Hopefully for good!

I am still having moments of wishing I could order a pizza for my kids and eat a slice or stop for burgers at Dave's Burger Barn, but I am trying to hang tough. I am missing my soda. I wish I could drink something other than water....(I hate tea and coffee).

Oh well, back to work....

TODAY'S MENU

Lunch
100g Tilapia with lemon pepper
2 tomatoes
1 apple

Dinner
100g turkey breast wrapped in a few spinach leaves
1 tomato
1 orange
1 melba

Snack
1 melba

R1P2D5 - 233.4 (-2.6)

2010-08-11T12:05:00.006-05:00

5lbs down from loading weight, 3.6 drop from start weight.

Nice drop! Although it's probably because I got sick last night and lost my dinner (I updated yesterday's post with more details). I bet I see a gain tomorrow.

Yesterday's headache is still here, yet a bit milder. I have felt pretty cruddy today and it may have something to do with being hungry all morning. I have been thinking about hamburgers and fries, lasagna and mexican food. But I am eating my lunch now and I may be starting to feel better, which is helpful since I am at work.

I can't help but wonder....what is the point of melba toast? do people really eat it on a regular basis? It makes me think I am eating sun dried cardboard. Blah!

TODAY'S MENU

Lunch
100g chicken breast with Mrs. Dash lemon pepper and habanero sauce - 100
2 tomatoes with a bit of salt - 44
1 apple - 95
1 melba toast - 20

Dinner
100g tilapia fillet with Mrs. Dash lemon pepper - 100
**baby spinach - 15cal??
1 orange - 65
1 melba toast - 20

Total Calories: 481

(**how much am I supposed to eat?)

R1P2D4 - 236 (-2.4)

2010-08-10T12:08:00.005-05:00

Well, I woke up with a slight headache this morning.

I'm not sure if it was because of the change in diet, the lack of caffiene or the fact that my daughter came in and woke me up at 3am because she broke up with her boyfriend and needed to talk to me for an hour. Not wanting to end up with the 2 day long migrane I had last time I tried this, I just relented and drank a Coke Zero, knowing full well I shouldn't but at the time, not having a headache at work was more important. When I got to work, I took some acetaminophen and between the coke and the meds, my headache subsided.

Anyway, I'm thinking that I am going to get bored with this food. I'm not sick of it yet, but I really don't know how to eat the veggies I like and still be "on protocol". I love tomatoes with a bit of salt. This is what I have been eating with my chicken breast or tilapia fillets.

The allowed veggies are spinach, ~~chard~~, ~~chicory~~, ~~beet-greens~~, green salad, tomatoes, celery, ~~fennel~~, onions, red radishes, cucumbers, ~~asparagus~~ and ~~cabbage~~. I crossed off the veggies that I don't like. So that leaves spinach (I only like baby spinach but not plain), green salad (what does this consist of? just lettuce?), celery (I like it with peanut butter or ranch, but plain?), onions (plain? ugh!), red radishes (they're ok but they get old REAL fast) and cucumbers (I like them in vinegar with onions but I can't eat them too often). So here I sit pretty much eating sliced tomatoes at every meal. What do I do?

Also, if my daily calorie intake only adds up to 485, what do I do?

Anyway, I dropped 2.4 pounds! That something to smile about, I guess.

TODAY'S MENU

LUNCH
100g lemon pepper chicken breast - 100cal
2 tomatoes - 44cal
1 apple - 95cal

DINNER
100g lemon pepper chicken breast -100cal
Baby spinach leaves with lemon juice -10-15?
Cucumbers and onions in vinegar -20-25?
1 orange - 62cal
2 melba toast - 40cal

Total calories: 481

EDIT: TMI ALERT!!! About an hour after dinner, I took my Women's One a Day vitamin, 2 Motrin PM for my headache and an antibiotic that I am on. A few minutes later, I felt like I was going to be sick, so I sat up and tried to make it subside and well.... I wasn't successful. I had to run to the bathroom and vomit. I believe most of my dinner came up. I couldn't bear to eat anything else, so I just went to bed, after taking 2 more Motrin PM with water.

R1P2D3 - 238.4 (+1)

2010-08-09T12:07:00.003-05:00

Well, I gained only 1 pound yesterday on my 2nd loading day, for a total of 1.4 gained. Not bad, I guess. I felt like I had grease coarsing through my veins last night, ugh!

Today was not looking very good either, as I almost ran out the door WITHOUT taking my HCG dose. And this was after I went to grab the grilled chicken breast I had put in the fridge last night, so I could make my lunch.....I found it in the fridge and it looked as if someone ate a few bites of it. I weighed it and it weighed 34g! KIDS! So now in a panic, I grabbed a can of tuna and ran out the door. Turns out it was 108g of solid white albacore tuna and it wasn't bad.

I did however use habanero sauce on my tuna since it was so dry, which I don't know if I am allowed to use or not. Am I? The ingredients are Habanero peppers, carrots, onions, lime juice, vinegar, garlic and salt. It is meant to be used sparingly like tabasco sauce.

Anyway, I just finished my lunch and I still need to eat my apple. I'm not very hungry, so I may drag it out a bit. I do need to get in some water today. It's 12:05 pm and I have only had 1 1/2 - 500mL bottles. I did also drink a COke Zero this morning on the way to work without thinking. I won't do that again.

TODAY'S MENU

Lunch:
108g of tuna with habanero sauce - 120cal
2 medium tomato - 44cal
1 granny smith apple - 95cal

Snack:
Melba toast - 20cal

Dinner:
100g grilled chicken breast with Mrs. Dash lemon pepper - 100cal
2 medium tomato - 44cal
1 medium orange - 62cal
Melba toast - 20cal

Total Calories: 505

R1P2D2 - 237.4 (+.4)

2010-08-08T12:47:00.003-05:00

Damn, I only gained .4! What happened?

Surely I ate enough fat yesterday? I walked around the mall, but didn't do anything strenuous, so I know I didn't burn it off....man, I'm disappointed.

Anyway, so I woke up late...and took my HCG at 11am. I'm just not sure that I'm ready to commit to this. I really don't feel like eating all day.

Today's MENU (SO FAR)

BREAKFAST:
2 frozen bean burritos (310cal/12g fat each)
salsa
1/2 pint rocky road ice cream

LUNCH:
Cheeseburger with bacon and avocado
a few french fries

SNACK:
1 pint of chocolate milk

DINNER:
Totinos Pizza

SNACK:
1 pint of mint chocolate chip ice cream

R1P2D1 (OFFICIAL) - 237 (SW)

2010-08-07T11:03:00.006-05:00

I had an internal argument with my self. I think my "fat, lazy" self was trying to talk my "I want to get healthy" self into postponing this round for a week or two. My "I want to get healthy" self won and here I am!

Well, I weighed this morning and I was 237. That 2 pounds more than I was when I started and my new scale registered 1.6 more than the old one anyway...so I guess I am pretty much starting from the same place I was at the beginning of my HHCG round.

So, as you probably guessed, I did my first injection of HCG this morning! It didn't even hurt a bit either! I just really hope I mixed it right though.

This is what I did:
Last night, I mixed 2.8cc of bacteriostatic water with my HCG (I bought 5 vials of Corion 2000iu from www.alldaychemist.com). For 175iu doses, I will inject .25 units every day this bottle should be enough for 11.4 days. Yea, I will have an extra vial, but I will have freshly mixed HCG every 11 days. :D

SO anyway...

I got up this morning took my shot and started to make eggs, sausage and toast with lots of Country Crock for me and my daughters. While I was cooking I was starving....but right after I started to eat, I felt a change. I, all the sudden, became NOT hungry, but I forced it all down anyway. 3-4 eggs, 2 sausage patties and 2 toast....oh and a glass of 2% milk. Now as I write this, I am dreading the rest of the day's menu.

Oh well, so hopefully I got real HCG and it works this time.

I thought of something, last time I tried the VLCD, I was using PAM (olive oil) on my George Foreman grill. Is that a no-no? Is so, what can I use to keep things from sticking?

I will update this post with the rest of my menu, and whatever else, tonight.

TODAY'S MENU

BREAKFAST:
3-4 eggs
2 sausage patties
2 wheat toast
glass of 2% milk

SNACK:
1 fudge bar

LUNCH:
1 order of Guacamole LIVE! (2-3 avocados)
1 order of Chile con Queso
Chips
Salsa

DINNER:
Migas (eggs, cheese, tomatoes, onions, jalapenos, tortilla strips)
1/2 order hashbrowns
4 Corn tortillas
2 biscuits and gravy

Waiting Day 14 - So Busy!

2010-08-04T12:19:00.001-05:00

Sorry for the missed posts but man, getting back into the swing of things as far as work goes is harder that I thought. I have been coming home at 6 and have been asleep by 8 every night this week! But needless to say, I'm LOVING my job. Anyway...

I got my supplies yesterday and my TOM on Monday so I'm thinking that I will start my loading on Saturday. I wonder how hard this is going to be with me working.

Couple questions:

Where can I get HCG safe lemon pepper?
Are two small-medium tomatoes OK to eat with my 100g of protein per meal and is there a limit on tomatoes?

I am wondering what else I did wrong during my 1st attempt at this diet, other than not taking HCG.

Oh well, back to work.

Til' later!

Waiting Day 11

2010-08-01T18:05:00.002-05:00

Tomorrow, I start my new job.

I just got back from spending about $150 and it felt good. I got my nails done, my eyebrows waxed and my hair cut. Then I bought some Paul Mitchell shampoo and conditioner, a new purse, a new wallet and some much needed new socks, panties and a bra (I just bought one because I want it to be too big soon :P). I have my clothes all laid out and I feel good to go!

Can't wait for tomorrow!

Waiting Day 10

2010-07-31T20:44:00.000-05:00

Well, my mixing supplies that I ordered yesterday (I cannot believe I forgot them) shipped out of ROMULUS, MI so I would imagine they will be here Monday or Tuesday. I guess I will plan on starting back up on Saturday, so I can load properly on Saturday and Sunday. I'll have to see how the week goes at the new job.

My daughter and I went and ate sushi tonight. I have vowed that it will be the last time until my HCG journey is complete. I am going to try to stay out of there because I know I overeat when I go (and it's expensive!!)

Anyway, last night I went to the mall and bought a top to wear on my first day. I also found this tank top shaper thing that actually makes me look decent in it! It very well may save some of my clothes that I wouldn't be caught dead wearing. I may be able to wear them now. We'll see.

Well I had better get going...I'm trying to complete all of next weeks Sociology work so I don't have to worry about school next week. At least that class....I may have a Psychology quiz next week but it will be no biggie.

Waiting Day 9 - 237.2 Argh!

2010-07-30T10:10:00.005-05:00

Well, I have been eating good the past few days. When I say good, I mean bad. My daughters and I ate at Olive Garden last night and yea....we stuffed ourselves. But no matter....

....according to my tracking number, they tried to deliver my HCG yesterday! It says they left a notice, but I must have missed it! I'm going to go look for it. And I just realized that I forgot to order a mixing kit! I'm going to check with the medical supply store and see if I can get what I need though.

More good news, I finally got word that I passed my background check and I am clear to start work on Monday. :D Finally! 15 months without a job is just not cool!

EDIT: I only found one place that would sell me the bacteriostatic water without a script, the mixing and insulin needles, but they didn't know where to get sterile vials...and they were ridiculously expensive. Also, I have 5 vials of 2000ui HCG in my order. I was thinking I could mix a vial at a time to get maximum potency (each vial will last like 11-12 days)....well, the pharmacist told me that once I take water out of the bacteriostatic water vial, I need to toss it....as it becomes contaminated once you pierce into it. If this is true then why do all these mixing kits only come with one vial? Ugh! BTW, I ordered THIS.

Waiting Day 8 - No weigh...oops.

2010-07-28T21:22:00.001-05:00

I had to take all 3 kiddos to the dentist today and we got bad news on all. My 18 year old had to have 12 teeth re-sealed because when she got her braces removed, the sealants somehow got screwed up (or something) and she has 4 cavities, my 16 year old had to have 11 teeth resealed and has 3 cavities AND needs a night guard because he apparently grinds his teeth (hence why he had to have his teeth resealed) and my 12 year old only had to have 1 tooth resealed but she also had 4 cavities on her adult molars. The dentist said she has tiny cavities on a couple baby teeth but they are about to fall out. She has 4 loose teeth right now! Ugh! Also, he said we couldn't fit her for braces for at least another year. She has the dental development for an 8 year old, he said.

Some good news...my HCG had cleared customs as of 5:47am this morning, so it's only a matter of time before I can get going on this journey again. I'm looking forward to it!

Waiting Day 7 - 236.7! OMG!

2010-07-27T12:13:00.002-05:00

Seems like I gained, no? lol

Well, I think it may be because I am retaining water?

The kids and I spend ALL day at Six Flags Over Texas...and I didn't over eat, as all I had was Diet Cokes and a pretzel. We stoped at Buffalo Wild Wings on the way home too, as it was all that was open. But whatever, we all had a blast and it was worth it! Oh and I am a bit sunburned too. :P

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Oh yea...and my shipment has been shipped out and is now waiting in customs!!! :D

Waiting Day 5 - Forgot to Weigh this Morning....Again!

2010-07-24T22:41:00.002-05:00

Let's see...what did I accomplish today?

I finished alot of schoolwork today and it took hours.

I returned a new laptop that I bought from Walmart. (It didn't run the programs that I wanted it to).

I drove out and checked on my grandparents.

I went and grabbed a Schlotzsky's sandwich to go and I now know I don't like them.

I am now at home watching Persons Unknown.

I plan to go to bed soon, as my baby (my 12 yr old) is finally coming home tomorrow, after being gone all summer.

Why do I feel like I haven't done much today?

Come on HCG. Get here already.

Waiting Day 4 - 235.4

2010-07-23T23:28:00.001-05:00

I have decided to TRY and continue on as a full time student AND work full time. This would mean working 8-5, having 1 1/2 hour commute time, taking 2 online classes, one night class (1 night a week) and a Saturday morning class. I'm wondering....can I do it? I hope so because I am all registered for fall classes now. LOL!

Anyway....still waiting on the HCG. Ugh....

Waiting Day 3 - Forgot to Weigh this Morning.

2010-07-22T19:01:00.001-05:00

Last I heard my HCG order was dispensing. Haven't heard a peep since then and I haven't recieved a tracking number. Hmmm....oh well.

I forgot to weigh this morning. My daughter had court for a running a stop sign ticket and we were in a rush. Ticket got dismissed though so that was good.

Not much else to report...other than I went out and test drove a 2010 Nissan Cube today. VERY cool and cute little car.

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Definitely a future possibility. :)

Waiting Day 2 - 235.4 (+.4)

2010-07-21T09:33:00.001-05:00

I really hope I'm just gaining what I lost and the upward trend will stop. I haven't been eating any junk, except 2 bite sized York peppermint patties. I guess I did eat alot of cheese yesterday, as I made my King Ranch casserole yesterday...but oh well, I'm not stressing about it.

Oops, I thought I had more time! I'm about to leave to go take my drug/alchohol screen for my new job and then do all the paperwork/insurance papers. So I gotta go! :D

Ta-ta for now!

Waiting Day 1 - 235 (+2.4)

2010-07-20T13:50:00.002-05:00

Watching the Unemployment Benefits vote on CSPAN right now. I am hoping and praying they pass this thing. I lost my benefits on June 19th and could really use a reinstatement of my benefits until August 2 when I start my job. Ugh...senators are so stupid. EDIT: It FINALLY passed!!! Whoo-Hooo!

Anyway...I gained 2.4 pounds...probably had something to do with the 2am run to IHOP at my daughter insistence. Ain't nothing better than migas in the morning. (eggs, tomatoes, jalapeños, onions, tortilla strips scrambled together and served with hashbrowns (didn't eat most of them) and corn tortillas. Whatever...

My HCG is in "dispensing"! :D

R1P2D7 - 232.6 (-1) I'm done.

2010-07-19T13:05:00.003-05:00

Yes, I lost 1 pound. But after thinking about it, I should have been down 7-10 pounds by now. So, I'm moving on to a better strategy.

I am placing my order for the real stuff from AllDayChemist.com right now.

I am ordering 5 vials of 2000ui Corion so that I can mix often and don't have potency issues. I am planning on doing the injections...to make it simple.

I am still going to try and eat better until I get my shipment. But yea....

Heck, I may still drop a few pounds while I am waiting for my shipment, who knows.

I plan to still blog while I'm waiting though...it gives me an odd sense of release to yack about my day...and I will try to post what I eat, as well...just so I have a record of what I have been eating while I'm waiting.

So no fake HCG for me today...I wish I was hungry. I need a Coke Zero. :P

TODAY's MENU

1 Hamburger with everything (no cheese or mayo)
1 handful of tater-tots (ARGH!!!)
1 diet coke

Boy...what a kick off to eating right. I took my son and his friend's to the burger place for "payment" for mowing my 1.5 acres and yea...I caved. Dumb part was...I wasn't even hungry. Oh well...

R1P2D6 - 232 (-0) Old Scale/233.6 (+1.6) New Scale

2010-07-18T13:35:00.006-05:00

Well...this sucks.

Everything would have been fine if I would have shown the slightest loss today but no...not only did I not lose, I gained 1.6 on a technicality...since my new scale registers more than my old one.

All of the headache, feeling sluggish and not being able to concentrate on my schoolwork is just not worth not losing anything.

I think that I am going to stay on it one more day...if no loss tomorrow, I'm tossing this HCG diet out the window and chalking it up to another diet that just doesn't work for me. I'm not convinced that homeopathic HCG even works the same as HCG supposedly does anyway and not sure, if I was losing, if I would be losing fat or muscle.

I don't know...I tried this because I knew if I was seeing results...I would stick with it...but I'm not seeing anything.

TODAY'S MENU

Breakfast:
Nothing

Lunch:
100g Tilapia with lemon pepper
200g sliced tomato

Dinner:
100g (or less?) of Cod with lemon pepper (fish shrunk up very small)
200g tomato
1 apple
1 melba toast

Snack:

1 orange

1 melba toast

Not one cheat...not one...

R1P2D5 - 232 (-0) - *pout

2010-07-17T22:46:00.006-05:00

Well, the good news is my headache went away and I haven't felt hungry.

The bad news is I am already getting bored with the food. I am not missing the soda at all, which is surprising, but I find myself craving milk or yogurt...and I didn't have a loss this morning when I weighed, even though I had a little cheat late last night, which on any other diet wouldn't have been a cheat at all. I ate 3 slices of cucumbers in vinegar and maybe 10 sunflower seeds. Whoopee.

And the next depressing piece of news is: I noticed that my old Denise Austin digital scale only measures in .5 increments so I decided to get a new one. I bought a very snazzy Healthometer scale that measures weight, body fat composition, BMI, bone mass and body hydration. Well, I set it all up with my age, height, sex and goal weight and then I did a test weigh...and then I weighed on my old scale. The new scale measured 1 pound MORE than the old one. Ugh!!! Anyway, I am going to start posting my body fat composition with my weight, just as a way to track it. It read like 55.1% a few minutes ago...which is ridiculous. So anyway...whatever I weigh tomorrow, it will look like a gain, due to the new scale registering 1 pound more. :(

I'm so depressed.

TODAY'S MENU

Breakfast:
Pft...

Lunch:
100g Tilapia with lemon pepper (not bad!)
200g tomato
1 orange
1 melba toast

Dinner:
100-120g chicken with lemon pepper (I got the 2 halves mixed up)
200g cucumbers and onion in vinegar with salt and pepper
1 small artichoke heart (cheat!)
1 melba toast

Snack:
1 green apple

R1P2D4 - 232 (-4.5) - Headache!

2010-07-16T16:47:00.001-05:00

I went to bed last night with a headache and woke up with one. I took my HCG this morning and literally laid in bed, in my dark, quiet room, until 1pm. I never fell back asleep. I got up made my lunch, took more HCG and still felt the same, adding nausea to the mix. A couple hours later I ate some strawberries and a melba toast, that I didn't eat with lunch...my headache started to get a little better. It's was bad...I took Advil but all I want to do is lie in bed. What is going on? Is it from not drinking soda? Not having carbs? Ugh...it sucks.

But when I weighed this morning I was down 4.5 pounds from yesterday!!! So I guess I'll take a headache day.

Anyway...I'm gonna cut this short. I have some studying to get through and then I expect that I'll be going to bed early, as well. TTYL!

TODAY'S MENU

Breakfast:
Nada

Lunch:
100g of Tuna (water packed)
200g of lettuce/spinach mix, tomato and red radishes with lemon

Snack:
200g strawberries
1 melba toast

Dinner:
100g grilled chicken with lemon pepper and habanero sauce
200g sliced tomato with salt and pepper
1 green apple
1 melba toast

R1P2D3 - 236.5 (-1.5) - First day of VLCD

2010-07-15T19:37:00.002-05:00

I knew I didn't do as well on loading on day 2. I was -1.5 lbs this morning. Oh well...

So, I just finished my dinner on this first day of the VLCD. I survived! In my opinion, I have done very well today, except I didn't take my 1st dose of the HCG (or whatever it is) until right before lunch. I also took a Women's One a Day today, I figure I might as well.

I did get a little hungry right before dinner...nothing gnawing, just my body telling me that I may want to think about eating. I was surprised about the amount of food I had when I got my lunch ready, as it doesn't seem like much on paper. I really didn't want to finish my apple...lol...but I was ready for dinner 4 hours later.

And now, after I finished eating dinner...I can't figure out if I feel hungry or not...but I definitely feel something, maybe a little hungry? It may not have helped that I watched Man vs. Food while I ate....haha! Also, I have a bit of a headache that started a few minutes ago....I'm thinking it could be from NO SODA. I haven't had one all day....THAT is an accomplishment.

Also, I have been a bit sleepy today, so I'm thinking about going to bed early so I can start to get on a work schedule again.

MENU TODAY

Breakfast:
Slept through it.

Lunch:
100g grilled chicken breast with lemon pepper
200g of sliced tomato
1 green apple
1 melba toast

Dinner:
100g grilled chicken breast with lemon pepper
200g of lettuce/spinach mix, tomato and red radishes with lemon juice

Snack:
1 green apple
1 melba toast

R1P2D2 - 238 (+3) - Loading Sux!

2010-07-15T01:31:00.001-05:00

I don't think I did as well loading as I did yesterday.

I went to a chinese/japanese buffet for lunch, but being such a sushi addict...I mostly ate sushi, but I did stick to the salmon, rainbow and avocado rolls, so every roll had avocado in it...I ate a couple cream cheese wonton things too. I tried an egg roll, but it was nasty and I spit it out in the most lady-like way I could muster.

For dinner, I ate a cheap Totino's pepperoni pizza...and I forced down 8 (yes, 8) Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, for an extra 48g of fat, as well. I drank water but I had 2 or 3 Coke Zeros. I told my son that as of now, he can have the rest of them. I do plan on polishing off the rest of the ice cream that is in the freezer, as soon as I'm done writing this too...

Come to think of it...I'm kinda worried that I didn't load enough today and yesterday....ugh...maybe I'll eat some chocolate donuts after the ice cream (bleh!)

Oh and I went shopping and got all my good healthy food. I found some fresh chicken breasts at Wal-Mart that are individually packaged and they are 3.5 ounces raw! I also got some frozen Tilipia and Cod that are also individually packaged in 3.5-4 ounces packages. I got all my veggies and after 20 minutes, I FINALLY found the melba toast! Ugh...that was a pain. All I know is my grocery cart never looked so good and healthy...I had no junk. My 16 yr old son was stunned! I also got a food scale and a little pink George Foreman grill ($15!). I'm ready!

NON-SCALE VICTORY:
I did get some utterly FANTASTIC news today, which probably helping in me forgetting about loading for awhile....I GOT A JOB OFFER LETTER TODAY!!!!!! Why is this THAT exciting? Because I have been unemployed for almost 15 months!!!! I have been SOOOOO READY to get out of the house and work again!!!! Whoo-Hooo!!! Cool thing about it? I'm going to be designing explosives!!! Muahaha!!! After moving to Waco, I never thought I would be able to find a job "doing what I do"...which is a Mechanical Designer...I figured I would have to settle for just any job I could get and just go to school. But now...I'm going to finish the summer semester online...and go back to work!!! Momma wants a new car and some new furniture!!! :D I'm so happy!!! LOL!

R1P2D1 - 235 (Starting Weight) - I feel...

2010-07-13T18:24:00.009-05:00

...so gross.

I got up at 10 am this morning and weighed myself. 235 on the dot. No surprise. Then I took my first dose of drops and....fell back asleep! I woke up about 1pm and forced myself to eat. I had FOUR cherry toaster strudels (760 calories, 36g of fat). To this I added a 8 oz. glass of 2% milk too. I was actually puking a little in my mouth after this...and I have eating this exact same thing for a late night snack. Weird.

Anyway, I took my 2nd dose of drops at 2pm, grabbed a bottle of water and took off to my school. The second summer semester starts tomorrow and I had to buy my books for my classes. So I was done about 4pm and got to worrying that I haven't eaten enough today (remember, I kinda started my day at 1pm). I decided to stop and eat something.

I went to Chili's and first of all, I have to comment on how many overweight women were in there, eating alone, all with multiple plates in front of them. That just boggled my mind...but it made me think of my mom and how she used to go out to eat alone. I hardly EVER will go out alone, today was my first time in years....but I didn't realize lots of other people do it. It made me feel like we should all sit at one big table together. Weird thought....

Anyway...I ordered an order of cheese sticks (1060 calories, 86g fat) and a "Handmade" Avocado Burger (1500 calories, 75g fat roughly) that I have been seeing all over the television. Let me tell you.... I was SO disappointed in that burger. It was greasy, the lettuce was wilted and the tomato wasn't ripe enough....but I ate the whole thing and the order of 7 cheese sticks with marinara...but I just couldn't touch the fries. Oh yea and I drank Coke Zero....Waco water is like Mexico water...you can't drink it....so hence the soda. When I got to my car, that was out in the heat....I thought I was gonna just pass out. I was SO stuffed and I felt like I just wanted all that food out of me...ugh!

I came right home...and now I am writing this in the nice cool AC and I feel a bit better, just stuffed and sleepy (due to eating too much).

I just took my 6pm dose...I figured I would start off with 4 drops at 10am, 2pm, 6pm and 10pm. So yea...I'm probably not going to eat anything again until at least 8pm. Don't worry...I usually go to sleep around 3-4am. I don't plan on eating after midnight.

You know? I was thinking about doing 3 load days....but I'm just gonna stick with two. I feel like I have grease running through my veins at the moment and I'm ready to get the VLCD underway.

BTW...is this real HCG?? CHEAP HCG SUPPLIES
That's for 2 vials and there is a 43 day mixing kit they sell as well. Isn't there a cheaper way to get the mixing kit? And don't 2 vials last 80 days? Ugh....

I'm still confused as to how the homeopathic stuff works....but I'd like to get some real stuff next time.

OK, I'm off for now...need to try and stay awake. My stomach is hard and I feel pregnant. LOL, I just weighed and I am up 2.5 from this morning (I know that's meaningless, but whatever, haha)

ADDED @ 12:26am CST: Added to what I have eaten, I've had about a half a pint of Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream (340 calories, 18g fat) to what I have eaten and a Mrs. Baird's cherry pie (200 cal, 10g), handful of sunflower seeds (roughly 190 cals and 15g fat) and 4 slices of swiss (280 cal and 20g fat). I have also downed at least 5 - 20 ounce bottles of water today...maybe 5. Enough to have me peeing constantly (annoying).

I am playing with the idea of ordering some real HCG and just switching to it when it arrives. If what I am taking is homeopathic...would it really matter if I did 2 weeks on this stuff and then 43 days of real stuff (thinking about injections)? Hmmm.....

My HCG came in!

2010-07-12T21:25:00.005-05:00

The HCG is here and I am starting the drops in the morning! I think I probably have enough "junk" here to eat for my load days...and besides, I need it out of the house, right? The directions say to take 4 drops 4X a day...so I'm going to start with that. My friend's daughter took 6 drops 6X a day of the same stuff and she lost 35, so I'll just wait and see how I feel.

OK, let's see...I have toaster strudels, frozen burritos, frozen pizzas, soft batch cookies, cherry pies, chocolate donuts, orange cinnamon rolls, green olives and eggs. Are these foods fatty enough? I thought about going out and getting a big ol' burger with avocado on top at some point....and I also need a sushi bar trip, to hold me off too....I'm kinda nervous about the loading thing. My appetite has already seemed to go down while I was waiting on the HCG to arrive...how weird is that?

Hmmm....I'm hungry. All I have had today was movie popcorm slathered in butter flavored whatever-it-is. BTW, I saw Robin Hood at the dollar theater today...LOVED it! I wish I would have gotten some Milk Duds.... FOCUS, MAGGIE! OK...

Oh yea...and I have a ton of Coke Zero. Can I drink Coke Zero? Please, oh mighty Gods of HCG? I know the answer is probably no....but PLEASE?!?!?! OMG, it really didn't dawn on me that I would have NO soda. I don't drink coffee or tea...ever. It was ingrained in me when I was little that coffee and tea were both "dirty water". My step-mom was such an idiot. But even so, I can't even force myself to drink either one...especially without sugar and tons of it.

Oh no... jalapeños. Jalapeños. Are. Not. On. The. List. *BAWL!!!!!! OK..I'm over it. *sniffle

Anyway....I have made my grocery list for the 500 calorie diet.

a scale to weigh food
liquid b-12
women's multi-vitamin
chicken
white fish (no salmon, tuna or herring)
shrimp
baby spinach
lettuce
tomatoes
celery
onions
red radishes
cucumbers
breadsticks (grissino) or melba toasts
apples
oranges
strawberries
lemon
vinegar
stevia sweetener
dill
black pepper

I really hope I'm not forgetting anything blatantly obvious but this is all I can think of right now.

And I am going to take my measurements tonight...as I know I am going to be in no mood to do them in the morning. I am not a morning person...but I'm going to get up and take my drops, first thing!

This is going to be one hell of a month. Here's to HCG!

Great, as if I wasn't worried enough....

2010-07-11T15:54:00.003-05:00

I have always been one of those people who over-research things. Unfortunately, I usually do most of the research AFTER it's too late. I buy a car and THEN go get it checked out by a mechanic. I order something electronic and only after it comes in the mail, do I see if it will accomplish what I want to do with it. Seems my stupidity may have just bitten me again...

As you know, I ordered my HCG from Celeste HCG and have been anxiously awaiting it's delivery. While I have been waiting I have been doing research to get myself "ready" for this journey and get as much information as I can about the protocol. I even signed up for Yahoo group called HcgDieters.

Well, in that group...they bash the drops from Celeste. They say they lose potency very fast and the dosing instructions are unclear. They say they are way over priced. I ordered 60 days worth for me and a friend...and now I'm worried they won't even last the 30 days that we'll be on them. They talk bad about the website, which in my opinion, looks better than alot of others I have seen. And on Celeste's site, they say that the drops are real HCG but some of the people on the Yahoo group say they are homeopathic (I'm confused about all that homeopathic vs. real).

Anyway...so now I'm stuck wondering if we wasted $81, when we could barely afford to spend it. Where is the best place to get HCG? I would rather stick to sublingual, but I want real HCG. Man, I should have never joined that Yahoo group.

And if that weren't bad enough...it seems that my 7 year old laptop has finally overheated for it's last time. I was just about to begin writing this post when it just shut off and now it won't turn back on....so no more blogging from my bedroom, I guess :(

PS - I renamed the blog. The other title was a bit long. I think this one will do nicely. :D

A little disappointed...

2010-07-10T20:24:00.000-05:00

My HCG didn't make it in today...so I guess I'll see it on Monday. In a way, I can't wait to get started...and in another way, I really just have no idea what I'm going to eat. I guess I should be getting a grocery list started and stock up.

Hmmm, come to think of it, I should have thought about that before I went to Walmart a little while ago. And of course, I haven't eaten a thing all day so I went to the store STARVING. Bad idea! I spent $60 on groceries....and as I was unloading...I realized I bought mostly crap. I bought eggs, salsa, smoked turkey, sliced swiss and wheat bread...not too bad, right? But then I also found the Soft Batch chocolate chip cookies, Pringles chips, Mrs. Baird's cherry pies and chocolate donuts. Oh and don't forget the 20 Patio frozen burritos and the 1/2 gallon of Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream. Is this all stuff I can eat while loading? I hope so...because I look at it all and I think I may have more of a problem with food than I realize. *sigh... re-reading that really embarrasses me.

My eating habits are horrible. I'm unemployed at the moment so I don't work. I usually don't eat anything until about 6 or 7pm. Then, I will eat something resembling a dinner type meal...but definitely not a dinner type meal. I am partial to Kraft Spaghetti Dinner and Kraft Egg Noodle Chicken Dinner. I grew up eating these with my mother, so I guess there is a little comfort in eating them. Both come in a box like Mac and Cheese. Heck, they don't even sell the Egg Noodle Dinner in stores anymore. I bought a few cases from Amazon a few months ago and I only have 4-5 boxes left, I think. I haven't ordered more. I believe that each box is 1000 calories prepared, if I remember right. Each box is meant to be 3-4 servings...but I eat the whole box as a meal. Then a few hours later I will eat a whole pint of ice cream...and then maybe, I may eat some cookies or other junk, but not always.

If you're wondering, yes, my kids eat like crap too. The two youngest are off visiting family for the summer though...but when they're here, they eat cereal for breakfast and maybe sandwiches for lunch...and usually for dinner, I take them out. On the off chance they eat at home, they eat junk, like TV dinners, burritos or pot pies. I never have fruit and vegetables in my kitchen. This is something I want to change. I want the kids to learn how to eat. Pathetic thing is, I KNOW HOW (I even took a nutrition class in college) but I have yet to just do it.

I was brought up eating like this...and I have brought up my kids the same way, without meaning to. My 18 yr old could probably stand to lose 10 and my 12 yr old is skinny as a rail...but my son is 16 and he at 6'2", he weighs in at 265 pounds. He inherited his size from his dad but I played a part in alot of the excess. I am worried about him. I would like to see him at about 220. I don't even know what he is "supposed" to weigh though. I should look that up.

So anyway, believe it or not, I don't even buy soda and sweets for the kids...all that sweet crap is for me. Not eating on a schedule and eating processed meals is what my kids suffer from.

Man, the more I write the more I realize....I have a long way to go. I'm a mess.

Come on HCG....get here already!

Well, I've gone and done it...

2010-07-09T22:17:00.005-05:00

I bit the bullet. I placed my order late last night.

I ordered 4 ounces of sublingual HCG from Celeste HCG which is apparently 60 days worth. It cost me $81, so about $20 an ounce. It comes pre-mixed and ready to go.

I just checked on the order and it has already been picked up and shipped out of the USPS sort facility in Gainesville, Florida. I would guess, since it is coming in Priority Mail, that it might make it here tomorrow...*wishful thinking...or Monday.

Now I guess I am in the phase of research. I am trying to get together all the information that I can so that I can make a good strong start on this diet. You know what they say....if something sounds too good to be true, then it probably is...but it's worth a shot.

I'm nervous...should I be?